The Pinnacle of Love

Man is the only animal who creates meaning, who wishes to understand the essence of love, who running through the “tunnel of understanding,” suddenly follows the course of his desires instead of his initial course–to seek truth in love and life. To understand the essence of love is also to understand the Pinnacle of Love: man falls in love, rejects/disgraces love, finds himself alone, redeems his transgression and then re-seeks love or else he remains in loneliness.

What is the Pinnacle of Love? The Pinnacle of Love embraces the cherished (intimate) relationship between a man and a woman; it is simply loving someone with such intensity and profoundness that either:

(a)   One begins to put their happiness in the other’s hands

(b)   One can easily predict the other’s actions and words, becoming uninterested

(c)   Third party causes a separation between the couple

There are four stages of love as seen in the following illustrations:
Illustration one: woman loves man, woman feels man does not love her fairly, she desires him to prove his devotion; however, one will always love (and give) more than the other…
Illustration two: woman and man love each other overwhelmingly, woman and man love with such heart and esteem, it becomes aching without the other…
Illustration three: woman and man fall in love, gets marry, have children, children move on, man and woman are alone; there is emptiness…
Illustration four: woman and man goes through none, one or more of the illustrations above, and (A) become bored and stubborn with one another…either one or both will enter an affair leading to separation OR (B) woman and man build an alliance and find equilibrium with one another, this allows them to come to a mutual understanding of their relationship, leading to continuous excitement and prosperity.

The Pinnacle of Love in stage C (third party causes a separation between the couple) is best described by Edgar Allen Poe in his short story, “The Colloquy of Monos and Una,” Una speaks to his love, Monos with the following words:

“…That earnest mutual love, my own Monos, which burned within our bosoms–how vainly did we flatter ourselves, feeling happy in its first upspringing, that our happiness would strengthen with its strength! Alas! as it grew, so grew in our hearts the dread of that evil hour which was hurrying to separate us forever! Thus, in time, it became painful to love. Hate would have been mercy then. (3^rd paragraph)”

The passage describes the relationship between Monos and Una, in the deepest of love, to be naïve in believing their love would last forever–without end and without separation nor grief. Surely, they were the happiest. While their relationship was in its youth, they believed their love would continuously grow as they grew. But as they grew, it became painful to love because they realized, with time one must leave the other. If they would have only hated each other upon meeting, hatred would have been compassion to the heart-aching torment they are currently enduring.

Having reached the Pinnacle of Love, there will befall a great sorrow unfamiliar to the heart, it passionately beating and weeping will hesitate the words: "I have truly loved without regret."

It is easily understood now that the most beautiful stories and poetry are often about love and the defeat of love. It is easily understood that the poet earnestly loves; she loves with such fiery passion, it burns as the prevailing need to pen down every thought–as much as she does not want to, she must write–as much as the man does not love her, she loves him with higher esteem.

(Substitute “man” and “woman” to respect both genders)

Merciless Inner Demons

What are inner demons?
Inner demons believed by some traditions are spiritual demons with great negative energies, with the terrible purpose to overpower, stray and slay its host. They delight in men's misery–they toil entirely to overshadow and terrify the host into obscurity and ultimately death.

Most are familiar with inner demons as the inner self who triggers pessimistic thoughts; these hurtful thoughts lead to failure, insecurity and unhappiness. These inner demons are incredibly powerful, they hold most people in bondage without the realization they are in captivity. Many will wander through life, believing their inner demons–believing they are insignificant. 

Regardless of your belief, understand that inner demons exist; they are as subtle as the breath you take. They are the reason why you are suffering, unable to attract love, seek riches, and find pleasure or purpose in life.

If you feel merely existing, unable to enjoy life to its fullest, if you feel powerless to change your course, if you desire wealth but are fearful to seek it, if you feel isolated, alone and depress, those are the inner demons working their evil influence. They are the strong negative force within, who stops men from attaining what he yearns. They block out positive, happy images, and delude men with thoughts of negativity; hence: “the evil in men’s nature have destroyed the good.”

My Inner Demons
As I reach closer and closer to the completion of my book, Star Watchers, I found myself doubting my book’s success and doubting myself as a writer. I became lazy and slow to work on my manuscript. I came up with reasons why I would fail and I believed them. For times, even days out of the week, I found myself wasting away my time and energy. I became constantly frustrated because I was alone in my work, because I receive neither help nor support from anyone. These negative thoughts and emotions overcast me, it was a dark cloud hovering me. I not only found myself confuse, upset and agitated but I was intimated. Then I began to remind myself: I may not be the greatest writer but I work hard to make my work great. I have a great imagination, no amount of education can teach a man to be creative. With this, I declared my inner demons to depart!

How to overcome them?
The only way to triumph over your inner demons is to first recognize them.
1) Vow for a change!
2) Identify why you are unhappy, why you are afraid, who and what is holding you back
3) Make a list of your fears
4) Then make a list of how you can overcome your fears
5) Make a list of the things you desire
6) Then make a list of how you can attain what you desire, map your desires out with steps you can follow and follow them
7) Constantly surround yourself with people and things that inspire and make you happy

With earnest belief in yourself–the ability to change and acquire greater things, you can control your thoughts, your success and your life.

In Star Watchers, one man surrenders effortless to his inner demons and finds himself in such horrible a place, not even death can relieve him of.